Feeling Shitty(part 2)

i realized itz only like 1 wk ago when i posted "Feelin Shitty"
1 wk later...today...
im feelin shitty again...

yeah...i haf been tinkin of her again...
lets call her "E"....

how did i know "E" ?
well...at NDP 2 yrs ago...
i was servin NS...
while she was an usher...from Ngee Ann Poly...
not long after...i had feelings for her...
mayb was a mistake...
coz E was attached.....

all was well until few mths ago...
we quarrelled...n E told me to get out of her life...
well..mayb E din mean it...
but i took it literally...
nvr contacted E since.....

but it seems i couldnt really 4get E....
keep tinking of E...
especially when i c all my frens who r attached...
yeah...e whole world is attached...
except me...
mayb shd do wat Grace saez..
join SDU or some matchmaking agencies...

anywae...
E once told me she couldnt accept me coz she cant bear to leave her bf...
n to me...E's bf is cheating on her...
which E constantly refuse to accept dis fact...
yeah.. i noe i might not b e best bf a ger can ever haf...
but im willin to gif my all to her...
as usual...
E chose to b wif e guy whom she loves...
n not a guy who loves her .....
doesnt dis alwaez happen in tv shows??

saw dis article in today's Newpaper....
" What is it in female genes that makes it so difficult for us to let go
and accept that a man does not love us, or has stopped loving us? "
itz written by columnist Janice Wong...
yeah a ger...
not some MCP...
one of e reason she gave was dis...
" .....like food wraps, women are instinctually clingy.
That's why we stick together when we go to the toilet. We love to cling,
be it our Gucci bags or to rotten relationships.
The problem is, we do not see it as a problem. We perceive it as a virtue - like
loyalty or preseverance and delude ourselves to feel good inside.
We are martyrs sacrificing our happiness on the altar of love"

Hope E is reading....
n make a space in her life for ppl who deserve her...
yeah i noe...might not b me...
but surely there are other guys out there who deserve her much more...

guess i shd juz keep quiet...
anywae im juz an outsider....
well..mayb im being selfish...
i wan her back in my life....
but not as juz a fren....

get it?